Prodigal: Chucking the fear of Coming Back

How many times have you done something bad to other people and have them forgive you? And how many times have you thought that what you did was unforgivable, then that someone gives you complete forgiveness? How did it feel?

In our lives, there will be many instances that we make mistakes. We're human. God normally doesn't go around in a burning bush or a thundering voice anymore these days, and His voice can be easily drowned by the noise of the world we're in. Especially if our foundation is not firm. Once we get lost, however, lots of people are afraid to come back. Their fear controls them and they cannot get out of it..

They get trapped because they either think one or most of these thoughts:

1. "What I did was unforgivable. I'm sure the Lord won't like me now."
     Newsflash! God LOVES us, and if there's anything you have to know about love, especially His love, is that it's so deep that He'll never ever hate or unlike you. He may be saddened or hurt or even angered by some of the things you do, but He will never hate or unlike you. He'll always have an open heart and open arms for you.

2. "I'm ashamed of what I did. I can't face God."
     Newsflash! God knows you. There is nothing in this world He doesn't know, and He promised to always welcome you back, to cleanse away all the filth brought by your sin and make you brand new. That's what Jesus came here for, to cleanse you from your sins and make you acceptable to God again whatever you did before.

3. "I'm afraid of the punishment for what I have done."
Newsflash! This shame has been felt by the very first humans God made: Adam and Eve. Remember when they hid themselves in the bushes fearing the Lord's wrath and ashamed of their nakedness? That's what happens when we sin. We fear retribution and we think that by "hiding" from God, we won't live with the consequences of the wrong we did. DO NOT FEAR! God is just, but He is also a merciful and loving God. Part of being with Him is being cleansed of your sin and owning up to what you did. Do not be afraid to do the right thing and make amends. If you return to God, He will ensure you will be your best self, and you will be able to fulfill your life's purpose.

So what are you waiting for? He awaits your return. :)

Hysteria

It's been a long time since I last wrote here. Those who know me will understand that work has kept me supremely busy since the start of my workday this year. Anyhow, what made me write today? A friend.

Often, life throws us curveballs. Often, we struggle to balance these, but when time comes and one of these becomes lead, some falter, but keep on despite the stress... Mainly because they don't want to fail others. The thing they must understand though is that the most important thing for the people who care about you is your well being. Go ahead and fail, make mistakes. It's ok. We're human. We're programmed to learn and hopefully be better from those mistakes. So don't be afraid to fail. Often, it's at the lowest point that the greatest moments and discoveries are made.

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I fear an abyss of uncertainty.
There's a hole I can fall into..
Any minute now, any minute now..

I fear the whispers of many.
Snickers, knowing looks, jeers...
They're crowding in, crowding in...

There's a swirl, a vaccuum
A void no one can fill.
We are trying, I am trying...

I feel confused, alone.
Whispers are mounting within
Swirling, slowly spinning...

I feel the pressure,
The stress and the agony
It's pressing me down, pressing me down

Somehow, I'll be okay.
Somehow, I'll find the strength to live
As me, independent from what they think.

Someday, I'll come back stronger
I'll come back better, readier, happier
I will be me, and fear will have no place here.

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